Saturday, October 07, 2006

Empty Nights And Empty Flirting

Like I said before, this weekend is Homecoming at my college. I was planning on going and had even been in contact with my peeps to meet up. Now though? I'm totally not feeling it. I texted my friend earlier asking where they would be and have yet to hear anything. I know I should call and maybe try to get in touch with someone else, but I'd rather just wallow right now and wonder why noone is missing my company.

It's still very early in the night, I know. But come 10 or 11pm when I get the "Are you here?" texts and calls, I'm going to either be sitting at home, watching bad TV or at a friend's party an hour and a half away.

And the mood I'm in? So not a good one to be in if I go there because I know I'll just end up in an even worse one. A lot of my Notblogging has been inspired by nights out there with NotRoger, NotDreds, NotTownie, etc., but a lot of the times I go there, it's just a lot of empty flirting. And what good is empty flirting? It sucks. It leaves me feeling crappy and I don't want to feel crappy. It's my one day off of the week and I want to be in a good, happy mood.

I'll let you know what I decide to do...

7 comments:

Lindsey said...

I can't blame you. The empty flirting is all just a big tease. In the end, there's no one to go home to or say I love you to. I know, I have had that going on recently too.

Marissa said...

im right there with ya. so...what did you decide to do?

jo said...

i can so relate. i've been feeling this way for a while now. sure i have a good time but i still come out of it feeling empty. and now it's come to a point where i rather stay at home and chill out than go out partying, flirt with some random boys and come back feeling empty.

CoatMan said...

Poor muffin. You seem depressed. But flirting that you know won't go anywhere is probably even more depressing. Poor muffin.

myboyfriendiscrazy said...

I get that same mood all the time. It always feels as though nothing could possibly make it better. Then magically at some point it disappears.

I hate it.

NotCarrie said...

Linny- Yeah, it seemed different before. The "empty" flirting. Maybe I'm just too removed from those times now or something.

Marissa- I stayed home and got a good night's sleep:) I needed that, too.

Jo- I just wish I had people closer by to chill out with.

Coatman- Aw, muffin. I like that:)

Mybfiscrazy- Yeah, I'll probably be over it by Thursday night. That's when my stress is over, haha.

NML said...

All those American movies and Sweet Valley High books and still can't remember what the f*ck homecoming is about! Whatever you ended up doing, I hope you had a good time x