There's nothing like the springtime to make you lonely. s
eeing all of those damn couples everywhere.
they're at the library at mason.
and concerts.
and standing in line at the grocery store.
you see them while waiting for your triple grande nonfat white mocha at starbucks.
even at the goddamn bar you went to on friday.
it sucks. and you want to do something about it but you don't want to rush into things because what good would that do? it would just be a spur of the moment thing with regrets and shy looks and ruined friendships.
i did a lot of thinking this weekend. besides giving up the internet (for the most part) and deciding to quit my job, i also realized that if it's going to happen with NotElliot, it will happen. i'm tired of waiting so i won't. it's like one step forward, two leaps back. progress is being made but only on fridays. it's kind of disappointing. especially with NotBigMouth in the mix. he took her home saturday night because she was too drunk to function. and hopefully do other things. is it wrong that i'm jealous?
is it wrong that i am hopeful in the fact that he answers the phone when i call instead of letting the voicemail get it and complains when she calls him? or winks at me after placating her when she left in a huff on saturday because he pissed her off?
there's something going on and i don't know if i want to know about it. i just don't want to be lied to.
At least i bonded with a guy over the weekend. NotPrince and i spent some quality time together all weekend. i miss having a good guy friend.
3 comments:
No, It's fine to be jealous...That's normal. I personally don't think there's anything to be jealous of, he's just a nice guy. Also a nice guy who knows NotBigMouth is still in the picture (group wise) so it's smart to placate her.
I like your posts.
I like your posts.
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